burn

I could just picture the whole world slowly closing in on me. Swallowing me up, not leaving the slightest bit of evidence. I would just disappear into thin air, evaporate from this temporary human form on earth. And noone would even notice. 

This feeling is just like treading water for forever. Searching the endless waterscape, but all you could see for miles is the deep blue ocean. Alone and adrift in the middle of nowhere. Struggling for air. Fighting your way to the surface again, terrified.

Emo music on full blast. On the brink of crying. How can things get worse than this? I've never been in such a state, where even I am unsure of what I'm feeling. Sometimes, it gets harder to even make it through the night. 

Please rain. I want the coldness to numb my heart, adding on to those awkward and cold stares from people around me.. I'm exhausted. It's just funny how one moment your life is at its peak and the before you know it, you're falling from cloud nine, crashing and burning. I've gotta stop hurting. This process cannot afford to repeat itself again because if it does...

Forget it.