Is it really necessary to fight over such petty things? Just because plans changed, and I had lunch with my friends instead of with you. Is it really worth it to bicker the whole afternoon?
Sometimes I don't get it. Well, put it in simpler terms, I don't get you. I've apologised and offered to bring you out for lunch but you didn't have to ignore me and push me away throughout the whole afternoon right? I've skipped 2 classes just to accompany you, but all you did was ignore me and played your freaking game the entire time. The only time you opened your mouth was to call me a useless bitch.

Okay. First things first, I've never heard of anyone who calls their girlfriend a bitch. You might say that you don't mean it, but calling me bitch at a daily basis is just pushing it too far. And also thanks for motivating me to go on a diet by constantly reminding me that I'm fat. I know that and you don't have to keep pinching my fats and asking me to watch my weight all the time.

Tweet all you want and curse all you want. When I tried to make conversations with you and tried to cheer you up, you didn't even utter a single word. And as soon as I left, you just starting cursing me on twitter. Okay then, well I guess it's not really my fault cause I gave you a whole afternoon to be on good terms with me, but you chose not to. Not gonna cry over these small things anymore, cause crying only makes matters worse. It's not like you even care, you hate it when people cry and you just don't give a shit about it. Especially when it comes to me.

Well, good thing is that you're a good friend. Sometimes, well most of the times, I wished we were just close friends. Then you wouldn't pick a fight over small things like this, and you'd just shove it off your shoulder cause we're just friends. But since we're not just friends, every single small detail will be taken into consideration and hence leading to a huge fight.

Yeah, it's normal for couples to bicker and argue. But it just sucks because bickering with you is the worst shit ever. When I'm at fault, even after I apologise, you'll still hold grudges and won't forgive me. When you're at fault, I have to apologise as well. I don't know why but the blame will somehow be placed on me no matter what. In the end, you'll pick a fit and I'll have to beg and plead for forgiveness like a pitiful puppy.

Don't get me wrong, when things are good between us it's like we're in cloud nine but when we fall, it'll be free falling from ten thousand feet and landing on concrete ground face down. Relationships come with a price. You can only enjoy the happy times only if you get through the hard times. And the hard times are usually damn shitty to go through.

Appreciate the people around you. And don't treat them like trash. Please don't take people for granted because you'd never know which day they'll just stand up and leave you and your shit behind.

It's getting a little frustrating when we're both so different people. We're like total opposites and it's like we're from two different worlds. No matter how hard I try to fit in to your group of friends, it always fails. And same goes to you trying to blend in with my friends. It just continues to prove that we are just too dissimilar. We don't have the same common goals in life and don't share the same opinions on certain behaviours and practices. How are we suppose to do the rest of our lives together when half of the time we can't even stand each other and the things we do? I really try my best not to become an overprotective control girlfriend but you must know that everything I do or say is for your own good. You may call me selfish but you have to know that I'm not gaining anything out of this. And it certainly puts me in a disadvantage if you get pissed off at me. So why take so much trouble into doing all these? 

Maybe we are just not meant to be. Are you sure you are in love with the right person? Because recently it just feels like we keep upsetting each other no matter what we do. It doesn't feel right, now everything just seems like a competition of who can piss off the other person the most. It really makes me wonder why out of all the other girls out there who would suit your personality better yet you chose the girl who least suits you, in fact she is the one who is the total opposite of what you are looking for. There's so many qualities in me that even I hate myself for having, and I'm sure you can't stand it either. Relationships are full of shitty times, like 90% of the time. You put your entire soul and spent so much effort and in return you get the treatment you least deserve, either end up in a heated argument or cold war or just get nothing in return. I won't complain about the way you treat me, because maybe you might feel the same way about how I treat you. So I'm not here to judge who treats who better but just a general overview into our relationship, neither of us are as happy as we wanna be. Yes, we can be contented with the way things are right now, but we're not truly, genuinely happy with it. 

Scorpio and Leo are two very loud, dominant and clashing personalities and no matter how hard they try to tone down, they are who they are and they can't change it entirely. The journey for these two to walk on the same road will be full of fights, blood and tears. Rarely you will get peaceful moments with these two. And same goes for us. It's time to realise that sometimes it's not because of the individual's problem, it's the problem of the big picture, when two perfectly normal individuals come together and form a problematic relationship. It might be fine if the Leo was together with a Virgo and the Scorpio maybe with an Aquarius. They might get along well because their personalities don't clash and there will be a more submissive personality compared to the other dominant one. 

Being together with you feels like I'm clipping your wings away and hindering you from your freedom and I don't want that to happen but it's just how the way things are. 

I don't know where to continue from this. All I know is that I'm feeling like I'm suffocating, I can't sleep and I'm feeling like shit right now. 

单纯的我一直以为只要两个人彼此相爱就可以永远幸福了。
但我错了，而且错得非常离谱。
两个人在一起，除了爱，也需要父母的祝福，朋友的赞同，一致的梦想，才能有信心迈进这恐怖的未来。
当初为什么明明知道这段恋情是无法长久，我却还是傻傻地妄想着幸福美好的日子呢？
可能是被爱情迷膜了双眼，也许是被那些童话故事里的那些幸福美满结局给欺骗了，总而言之，我就是坠落进这个爱情圈套，紧紧的绑住，无法解脱。
何时该放手，何时该坚持？
两个命中注定要在一起的人最终一定会在一起。但命运给我们俩的安排是怎么样的呢？
相处久了，就发现其实自己好像变成一个不属于自己的我。
而是已经成了一个专属为了配合他的生活习惯，符合他的种种要求的另一个人了，早已失去原本的自我。
妥协，忍耐，我们都试过了。虽然可以暂时让我们好好相处，但是不久后我们将会把某某小事或误解拿出来吵。
有时他所做的某某事情，我不赞同。不是无理取闹，而是因为我为他好。但他却明明知道我不喜欢，他还是坚持要去做。我很无奈。
我很渴望幸福的感觉因为我已经很久没那么开心了。说不定我已经忘了那种感受。还记得以前那种让我的心跳加速的感觉，因为很期待他的出现。一看到他会开心得不得了，整晚睡不着。
现在则是我需要睡眠来去除我当天的不开心和一切烦恼。
所以，任何一段恋情单单只靠爱是永远不足的。
我是不是比较适合做回从前的我，那单纯平凡无虑的我？
让我不用再去烦这些关于爱的复杂情绪。

晚安。